Did I break it? Was I not able to control myself! These are the questions many asked me after my last post.
Yesssssssss. I broke my promise and again started watching anime. There are no excuses for it.
This is one of the points that I will never forget in my life.
So, it was true that I was not able to control myself. All including myself was blaming these habits. It maybe was troublesome to others but this was a big mistake for me.
I always tried to live my life as a protagonist. Let me explain, whatever I do and I mean whatever I do there is a voice in my head narrating the things that are going along and comparing it to me.
From when I was a child I remember that I never wanted to be normal, whether in a competition or anything. That thing running on me till now.
If you would have read most of my post till now. You would have gathered that I really hate all people who make fun of my dreams or say that I would not be able to achieve it.
Well, it turns out that my new dream was to prove them wrong rather than doing what I wanted to do. Hatred has again started to rise inside of me. My mind is really like that of a writer. Quickly it keeps making drafts of everything that’s been going on.
I try to make amends but it quickly fails cause that’s not what my heart really wants. Yep, it’s true that I am an introvert who really hated reality and quickly shifts to an imaginary world rather than facing the situation.
But I want to improve myself slowly and steadily. Anime is the thing that keeps my heart pure. I would prefer to lose some bad habits of mine rather than losing the things I love.
So, yeah! Sorry to people who I have made sad. It would be pretty bad if I tried to hide it from you guys.
This diary is a way for me to get back into reality, after all !!
Anyway, thanks soo much for reading my posts!! If you liked it, prefer to subscribe to my website and thanks to a certain person for reminding me of this!
Sayonara is back !!!